Icon from a picrew by grgikau. Call me Tir or Julian. 37. He/They. Queer. Twitter: @tirlaeyn. ao3: tirlaeyn. 18+ Only. Star Trek. Sandman. IwtV. OMFD. Definitionless in this Strict Atmosphere.
im not christian, but i have encountered so many transphobic christians that actually hearing someone in a position of authority in their religion actively support trans people makes me feel like maybe there is hope
I keep getting hate from abled people who wanted to watch Me Before You and didn’t like the fact that I spoiled the ending in my posts where I talk about how disgusting it is to have the main character kill himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. So, in an effort to stop the hate, I will minimize the amount of time that I talk about the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. It’s not fair for all of these abled people to have to read the spoiler that the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. In fact, it’s downright mean for me to keep talking about the fact that the ending to the book involves the main character killing himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. After all, I respect the wishes of the abled community and if they want me to stop talking about an ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled, I will stop talking about the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. Even though the ending, the one wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled, is horrendously disgusting and offensive to the disabled community, who are currently protesting the movie because of the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. And as a disability advocate first and foremost I would argue that it’s my job to also protest the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. In fact, I have received many messages from disabled people who didn’t know that the book/movie ended with the main character killing himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. And those people have expressed gratitude that I warned them of the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. Because had those people seen the movie wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled, they would have been extremely upset, and not just because a character killing himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled is sad but because it truly is offensive and sickening to have an ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. Be that as it may, I do owe something to the abled community probably and because of this, I will henceforth put a spoiler alert in my posts so that they don’t have to read about the ending wherein the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled.
Spoiler Alert:
The main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled.
You folks have to stop reblogging this.
Otherwise some poor abled person is going to see the spoiler that (Spoiler Alert) the main character kills himself because he doesn’t think that his life is worth living now that he’s disabled. And we can’t have that.
there’s no such thing as a stupid reason not to kill yourself.
your school sells cookies on thursdays? your favorite band is coming out with a new album? you’re still saving up for that tattoo? there’s still five sodas in your fridge and it’d be a shame to let them go to waste? you want to see the season finale of that show you love? keep living.
your reasons don’t have to be big, if they mean anything to you then they’re good reasons.
Yes! Just make something to look forward to
Okay but this is honestly true.
One of the closest times I came to committing suicide was when I was home alone for the weekend a few years ago. The reason I didn’t?
No one else was there to feed the cat until Monday.
That’s it. That’s all that saved me.
See, this is such good advice, because it can put you in the frame of mind that you need to be in to combat depression. Even things that seem little, like, “My plant will die if I don’t water it,” or “I’m the only one that takes out the trash, anyways” are examples of how you’re needed and valuable, even appreciated.
There are people out there that need you and love you. Stay alive friend, because it is so worth it.
“
My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.
And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.
The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.
My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.
So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.
But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.
I work in an ER and we see suicides all the time. And we get at least 3 suicidal ideations a night. We all care about you. I promise, we do. A team of complete strangers who have worked 3+ 12 hour shifts this week who are being screamed at all day and night and probably haven’t had lunch and trust me, we still love you and care about you.
We had a 16 year old patient last night who we couldn’t save. We were in that room with this patient for over an hour, we did everything we could. And let me tell you, we all cried. The EMT’s, the nurses, the doctor. We all huddled together in the doctors dictation room and cried.
I went through the rest of my shift with smudged mascara and tracks on my cheeks.
I remember the names of all the patients that have taken their lives on my shifts.
I remember squeezing the hands, smoothing the hair, kissing the foreheads, and wiping away the blood and the vomit of every patient that has left me too soon.
I can still see every face that I have zipped into a body bag.
Trust me, someone cares about you. You have never met them yet. You don’t ever think about them. They are never remembered when you talk about heroes and role models.
But someone loves you.
damn….
This made me cry
When I was in hospital being seen to, being bandaged and sedated and surrounded by medical staff, my family was ignoring my calls, my friends hadn’t cared to check in. I felt terrified and hopeless and so very unimportant that it was taking everything it had in me to not drink the cleaning products left nearby by one of the cleaners, to make sure I finished the job properly.
There was a nurse though, who came into my room with a soft smile, who held my hand, who took away the bottles when she noticed me watching them for too long. There was a nurse that plugged in my phone to charge in case my family called back, that took away the bloody cloths the paramedics had left me with, that helped me put my hair up when it was sticking to my tear streaked face, because my arms were too sore to do it myself.
There was a nurse that saved my life twice in one night, who made me feel that I was worth being looked after, and her name was Emma and she was the most beautiful person I’ve met.
Months later, I was visiting my mother at the same hospital whilst she was incapacitated with back concerns. Whilst I sat and watched my mum sleeping, a nurse approached to check up on her. She met my gaze and she smiled immediately, face lit with recognition, and she said “oh my gosh, hey! How are you doing?”
People definitely do care about us even if we don’t think they do, and to the original poster?
“22 veterans commit suicide a day. That’s 22 too many.”
I saw some things on deployment that 99% of people in this country would never see. I came home, but I didn’t feel “home”. My attitude changed. My life wasn’t the same. I would have random bursts of anger and depression for no reason. It ruined a relationship that was once great. She didn’t understand and wouldn’t attempt to ask what was wrong with me.
Nobody did.
I drink everyday. I feel alone. I need help.
Please reblog this to create awareness that 22+ veterans committing suicide each day is unacceptable.
2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again…
19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on roadtrips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Travelling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
56. I don’t even know you and I love you.
57. I don’t even know you and I care about you.
58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. Starbucks.
62. Hugs.
63. Stargazing.
64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is.
65. You’ve changed somebody’s life.
66. Now you could change the world.
67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you.
68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life.
70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has a talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist.
79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping in all day.
90. Creating something you’re proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. Sherlock season three.
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
I know a lot of suicidal transfolk have been getting a lot of publicity ever since Leelah. Now, its great that trans issues are being brought to light, but what I’m seeing literally horrifies me.
I keep seeing more of these PSAs and add-like notifications that trans people are committing suicide. The biggest message behind it all is “they have a name”. I know that transgender suicides are NOT unheard of and have been happening since before Leelah, but something occurred to me that chills me to the bone.
I don’t want this to be a trend.
Transgender kids, teens, and adults NEED to know that there are other ways to be heard. You DO have a voice. Please, for the love of my fellow transfolk, do NOT kill yourselves. Your life isn’t a trend or a statement to be said and left alone. Your voice can be just as powerful, it can be MORE powerful.
Please just whatever you do, dont let these posts about other peoples suicides let you think that it is in any way a good place to turn. This isnt what Leelah wanted or stood up for and its not what I stand for. The road to acceptation should not be paved with the bloody suicides of our brothers and sisters. Suicide is not the answer- even if you don’t feel like anyone out there loves you then please know that I love you and my heart aches for every single one of you- those who are here and those who have gone.
