kirksfattitties:

kirksfattitties:

i mean to me the appeal of amok time, as a queer man, is:

• the fact that we see spock struggle with and agonize over a very normal and natural experience
• and we see how much he despairs over having to tell someone
• how he puts dying in agony on the same level as having to go back to his home world and get married to a woman
• thinking he ruined his relationship with the first person he was honest with by having to fight him
• and then grabbing and holding and smiling when he finds out this man is alive

in a way that very clearly parallels my own and other queer mens experiences in overcoming internalized homophobia and coming to acceptance with who we are (obviously with some cool dramatic scifi bonuses)

not to mention that spocks pon farr was resolved without having to mate in the conventional sense, implying that the fight was enough, the mating was fulfilled in an unconventional way, and/or spocks emotions for kirk dying brought him out of pon farr

and then on the flip side seeing from kirks perspective:

• being a man who is very clearly confident in himself and who he is as a person struggling to help his closest friend
• trying to get this friend to trust you so you can help them but without pushing them so hard that they push you away
• being quite literally willing to die for this friend to be okay
• and both of them at the end finding comfort in each other and the knowledge that are are both alive and well and (even if not showing it) happy

in a way that very clearly parallels my relationship with other queer men who i see working out their own internalized homophobia and trying to help them, even if it means having to experience that homophobia again. and then the solidarity between queer men after we have worked through our issues and finding comfort and love in each other

clearly amok time wasn’t made to represent this exact struggle, but many queer men i know deeply relate to that and to spock in general, especially when masculinity revolves around being tough and unfeeling and when the concept of manhood revolves around attraction to women.

and also, of course, the tits

demetersdamsel:

Star Trek is so romantic, like looking past the campy costumes and sets the premise of the show is amazingly idyllic. People and aliens of all different races working together to further their progress in the sciences and arts. Just because! There is no profit or capital driving force it’s simply to better themselves. And they find love while practicing this intrinsic human behavior of exploring out of curiosity. TOS has some of the loviest episode titles like City On the Edge of Forever and For the World Is Hollow and I Have Touched the Sky. “Captain, you almost make me believe in luck” “why mr. spock you almost make me believe in miracles.” Like the very core of the show is romantic in every sense of the word