Icon by @ThatSpookyAgent. Call me Tir or Julian. 37. He/They. Queer. Twitter: @tirlaeyn. ao3: tirlaeyn. 18+ Only. Star Trek. The X-Files. Sandman. IwtV. OMFD. Definitionless in this Strict Atmosphere.
julian talking to his casual male friends totally normally: admit it old boy, i’m basically your wife. lets go to the holosuites for hours pretending to be old timey soldiers huddling together in a foxhole and let’s not let anyone else on the station join us because its personal. here have these chocolate bonbons back, they’ll remind you of me during your emotionally harrowing mission. can you please act a little more like garak i miss him and i need him here to argue with me about theatre or i’ll cry. please pin me to the nearest wall. it’s imperative that we maintain eye contact while i take a tiny little kitten sip of this martini. just a reminder garak i know what you have for breakfast every morning i have that memorized. i can’t believe you won’t tell me all of your secrets and admit that you care for me and accept my unconditionally care for you after all of our, um, weekly lunches. it’s good to see you again martok now lie down while i nag you about the carpet like a sitcom wife. miles you are like cupid the god of love. hey worf is that a new perfume it’s nice
julian trying to pick up women, sexually: i’m a shower man myself, what if we got into a shipwreck together right now
Okay am I the only one who finds Julian WAY harder to write than Garak? Like, with garak I can usually just listen to a few clips of him speaking and I can hear him in my head for other dialogue but for Julian he’s so variable and he switches his tones so often and he sometimes has this oddly old-timey way of speaking. Anyway- am I alone??
The following is a list of observations about Julian which you can feel free to disregard if you want.
Julian is a man who can’t figure out who he is so hops around hoping to one day get it right. Until then he is a social chameleon who matches and/or compliments the energy of the person he’s with, examples:
1) He is big on dry/deadpan sarcasm (his delivery in response to being asked if he was alone in solitary, for example), particularly when challenged by someone he doesn’t like. Sloan was acting very excitable so Bashir became the other end of the seesaw because that’s what he does when he doesn’t like someone. He takes their energy and does the opposite. See also panicking Winn and his controlled tone even though he’s frustrated by her and telling her to fuck off.
2) His voice (both tone and volume) goes up and his words get faster when he’s passionate about something (books, defending a patient). He tends to do this with people who are also passionate (Garak, someone who wants to hurt his patient). The one time he tried it and it didn’t work is when Garak was gone and he had lunch with Miles. Once he realised it wasn’t working he switched it up to match Miles’ energy.
3) He does talk back to authority but it’s usually a low tone that’s almost gentle until you register the words (challenging Winn, challenging Worf when Bashir wanted to keep looking for Sisko). He’s more likely to silently dig his heels in and wait for you to realise you didn’t win him over than to get into a shouting match.
4) On those rare occasions when he does raise his voice it’s usually at people he’s learned won’t listen to him any other way (’And I find you offensive’ to Dukat, who then obeyed him and held out his arm.)
5) When he’s with Miles or Jadzia he matches their energy. Holosuite getting-in-character for Miles (or ‘guy talk mode’), flirty and fun for Jadzia. (lots of smiling, jokes and playful cheek kissing/gentle swats on the arm).
6) The few times we’ve seen him perform surgery or an emergency healing he is 100% serious with no small talk until he knows his patient is okay (performing surgery on Bariel, talking to the Jem’Hadar right before healing Keevan).
7) When he’s alone he talks to inanimate objects (Kukulaka, the virus he was working on curing in Chrysalis). His tone is almost always one of mild fondness, like it’s another friend who’s just a bit quiet.
So in conclusion, writing Julian (in my opinion) requires me to first look at who he’s with, what they’re doing, and how much he likes and/or respects them, because Bashir is a man of masks, like someone who learnt the Rules of Interaction for every person they know and follows them fairly diligently. That does make it hard to pin down his voice, but it also leave a lot of room for forgiveness, because maybe he would say that, or use those words, or that tone.
Okay, sorry to hijack this post but it just reminded one of the main reasons I’m just SO ANNOYED the series didn’t end with Julian going off to Cardassia to help rebuild it, and it has absolutely nothing to do with my little Garashir shipper heart.
No, it’s because we were cheated of the scene of when Julian is saying goodbye to everyone, and someone mentions how tough it’s going to be since Cardassia’s been “bombed back to the stone age” or something like that, and then Kira says, “Well, I guess the Cardassians are lucky one of the best doctors in Starfleet still has a taste for frontier medicine” wink, haha.
but then Julian just gives this self-deprecating little smile and looks her straight in the eye and says, “It’s not a frontier. It’s their home.” And they just smile knowingly at each other, appreciating how much things have changed and how much they’ve both grown and learned and UGH I’M JUST SO M AD I DIDN’T GET TO SEE NANA AND SID ACT THIS SCENE CAUSE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN PERF
so i finally watched “our man bashir” and while the gifsets and posts had primed me it being a gay asf episode i was still truly, utterly unprepared for just how fcking GAY the whole thing was, to the point where it’s not even queerbaiting, it’s just straight up an episode about queer desire and queer connection filtered through what was permissible to show on tv. like, literally it’s a parable of gay desire. you have the trope of james bond, an iconic fantasy character who is desired by gay men despite (or maybe because of) his suavely consistent heterosexual masculinity onscreen. queer desire “sticks” to characters like bond. and it’s the fantasy of bond through which julian explores his own inner desires, which revolve around the mystery and charm of garak, a former spy. he wants to be garak, but we know as queers that wanting to be like often slips into be with.
then you have fantasy and reality blurring dangerously close together, so that julian has to rely on garak’s knowledge, on the unglamorous, ugly work of being an operative that garak has lived firsthand. so the fantasy of the spy (bond) and the reality (garak) are now merging, collapsing the distance between julian’s desire to emulate garak and julian’s desire for garak. then, he shoots garak, drawing blood, reality pulsing through the fantasy in the form of bodily fluids and ruptured skin, fantasy and reality penetrating each other. and THEN you have julian saving the day by applying garak’s knowledge, by reciting garak’s words back to him while garak watches proudly and fondly. the circle is complete, julian has achieved union with the object of his desire, and the simulated scenario dissolves. julian repeating garak’s words in a room full of people is practically a confession of love: i see you, i admire you, i understand you.
and that’s not even touching on the inherent homoeroticism of garak watching while julian touches and is touched by beautiful, scantily clad women, NOR the homoeroticism of this being the second episode where garak plays a major role in julian’s psyche. in “distant voices” garak is the mask worn by an alien trying to destroy julian from the inside out - it’s garak’s image, his words and voice, that challenge julian’s deepest assumptions about himself, and ultimately strengthen them as he prepares to leave his youth behind. garak ushers julian through a rite of passage whereby he emerges stronger, more sure of himself, alive. garak represents things about julian he’s afraid to confront that, simultaneously, he can only confront in garak’s presence. and then there’s
[Image is someone looking unkempt and gesturing wildly to a complicated set of pieces of paper and red string on a wall. End]
Yes! I do also think it’s significant that at the end Julian is using Garak’s words, but in a context which means that they have basically the opposite meaning they did when Garak said them. I think it shows that Julian isn’t turning into Garak, but they’re mutually influencing each other, which in the equation of “do I want to be this person or be with this person?” ends up removing one option and making the other one clearer
by the way we all talk about Julian Bashir being autistic but also remember he is definitely adhd as well
You know, Julian makes a point of asking Miles and Kira to call him by his first name. Which makes me wonder: Why not Garak? Maybe simply because in both cases with Miles and Kira, Julian was attempting to cultivate intimacy and friendship. But he doesn’t need to do that with Garak, because they are already close?
Just thinking about the fact that Leeta and Julian had like… objectively the healthiest breakup in TV history.
They dated for a while, decided they weren’t right for each other, went to Risa, fucked out their feelings, had a break up ceremony and parted ways on good terms.
No jealousy, Bashir would be like “Leeta he’s a hottie, go get that ass.” And Leeta would be like “she’s gorgeous Julian you need a wing girl?” And then they’d get flustered and do a healthy break up smash to get each other out of their system.
Wholesome as fuck, good for them! Thank you Star Trek for having the bravery to depict mature healthy adults, in mature healthy relationships ❤️
And then Leeta went on to date Rom, which seems like it could’ve been a joke, especially how the reactions from quark and bashir were played for laughs, but they legitimately had like… maybe THE healthiest relationship ever depicted in star trek?? They had arguments, sure, but every time they solve them, they do so with their love totally renewed for each other, and Leeta even becomes sort of a surrogate mom for Nog. Good Shit