Icon by @ThatSpookyAgent. Call me Tir or Julian. 37. He/They. Queer. Twitter: @tirlaeyn. ao3: tirlaeyn. 18+ Only. Star Trek. The X-Files. Sandman. IwtV. OMFD. Definitionless in this Strict Atmosphere.
what if bashir was apprehended by changelings and they were like “MOVE IT SOLID” and he was like “actually did you know humans are 75% water” and then they punched him
this is honestly 100% in character and it is a shame we never saw it on screen
Real talk it’s actually very gratifying to write Julian being utterly, hopelessly, horny for Garak and not getting why anyone who likes men wouldn’t be
The point here is not that Garak is unattractive and Julian has a skewed perception BTW its about the fact that Garak has multiple traits that render him unattractive to the average Star Trek audience (which is also true of Julian- there’s a reason Siddig didnt consider himself handsome at the time DS9 was filmed and its because Americans have no fucking taste. Which is also why I don’t think ‘Julian gets no puss’ jokes are funny). Garak is pretty and sexy and as a character exists in a time when middle aged fat effeminate men are not considered sexual beings by the general public, much less as desirable. The desirability of effeminate men is very much predicated on their thinness and youth, among other things.
This is a post about queer desire and the gratification of being able to depict aspects of oneself as desirable when you’ve spent your whole life being subtly told that one thing or another will permanently place being desired outside your reach.
Julian being dissapointed that Jadzia and Worf want to have a baby is the most out of character bullshit I’ve ever seen like I don’t accept that Julian would be anything less than super happy for them I WANT A REFUND
reblog this post and tell me what atrocious article of clothing you think julian would wear to lunch with garak just to watch his blood pressure rise. i’ll go first:
having now seen Inquisition… i dont know if that post that was floating about referring to it (saying that this episode was initially going to be about julian not paying a parking ticket) was true or not, BUT! i sorely would love to see that premise done, to the exact deranged lengths sloan went to in this episode.
you parked on the yellow lines. the yellow lines? there were never any bloody yellow lines! i bet thats what you’d fucking say, you dominion spy! (spits) tell me, bashir, did fucking weyoun put you up to this! (weyoun in the background painting yellow lines on the ground like 😁)
that meta about sloan using the D.E.N.N.I.S. system on julian is literally exactly why there is no happy ending for this bitch without garak in his life. nobody else understands how that shit works in the bone-deep instinctual way of someone who was born into it, groomed into it, lived it, breathed it, and then was kicked out into the mud and stomped on by it. julian will never again be pure in his ideals, that’s true, but garak was the first person to teach him about how that is ok actually!
julian forgave garak and he can learn to forgive himself too, but he won’t bother if there’s no one in his life who actually sees that darkness in him. garak knows. garak can’t judge him. but garak also by his very nature can’t let julian forget about these things or pretend they’re not real. they’re reflections of each other in a grimy distorted funhouse mirror that’s somehow the most honest thing in both their lives. your honor,,,,,
Not only does julian confront tain like “you bastard you put this thing in his head and now it’s killing him so you’re going to help me fix it” but then he’s ALSO like “btw garak mentioned this other guy he used to know someone named elim you know where I can find this bitch?” like he really was ready to go fight ANOTHER member of this super secret super dangerous enemy spy organization all because he thought he was mean to garak once
Sorry for being late, it’s raining outside and I wanted to contemplate my position in the grand infinite of the cosmos while water streamed down my face. And play in the puddles.
