Icon by @ThatSpookyAgent. Call me Tir or Julian. 37. He/They. Queer. Twitter: @tirlaeyn. ao3: tirlaeyn. 18+ Only. Star Trek. The X-Files. Sandman. IwtV. OMFD. Definitionless in this Strict Atmosphere.
today, my mum told me that she was going to “knock [me] the fuck out”, and that she wanted to “rip [my] fucking face off”.
called me a b*tch, and a selfish, nasty immature c*nt that she couldn’t stand
physically shut and locked the door to bar me from leaving the house when I attempted to go to college
told me she was going to kill herself, and that it’d be my fault when she did
said that I’m not her child, my life has nothing to do with her and that any debt I got into wasn’t her responsibility. she said that if I had to starve, it wasn’t down to her, “because that’s what students do” and that I was lucky she fed and clothed me
told me I was a p*ssy for not keeping jobs, that I had to quit because she used most of my wages to buy her and my sister trips out of the city, new clothes, while making me pay for bills, etc, until I was in so much debt and pain from constantly working, with seizing legs, constant nausea and extreme anxiety that I couldn’t physically keep going.
this happened because I asked her if we could talk after I came home, about her helping me with the £34 broadband bill she uses my debit card to pay. about my mental health, and the fact I feel I’m collapsing.
things aren’t getting better for me. things aren’t okay. I’m doing all I can to survive, but I feel like I’m drowning. my mum is abusive, has been since I was around 10 years old. she + my sister are extremely transphobic + homophobic, to the point of being almost violent - I’m non-binary, and pansexual. I am not safe here.
please - if you can’t donate, reblog. if you can spare anything + donate, PLEASE still reblog.
if you can’t reblog it all, share this with a friend. anything, anything helps.
hi all - as always !!! i appreciate every reblog of this, any sharing you do with friends + maybe even family; even if you can’t donate at all, i promise getting it out there helps, too ♡
!!! please do keep sharing - even if you can’t donate, there’s definitely going to be people who can on your dashboard (and even if it’s small, it means the world to me, i swear)
Please, i just have $120 to pay off on my card, but then i need to pay my phone bill by the 15th ($60) and i need another $100 for medication in the next week..
um so, if anyone of you know this i just recently suffered a house fire, we lost….everything, most isn’t salvageable and my mothers important medications, our clothes, food, medical equipment, literally anything and everything we owned. a few things were salvageable but most is either burned/melted or smoke damaged.
if anyone of you know my situation, i’m not very well off, i barely make it paycheck to paycheck, while i support my ill mostly bed bound mother who suffers from cancer, chronic pain, massive gastric issues and my step dad who has severe diabetes.
if im honest…….i have no idea, how i’m gonna do this. how im gonna afford what we need, and if the insurance claim will even help us. if you could just please, either signal boost this or donate a dollar, anything would be helpful.
i’ve set up an youcaring account, paypalhere to try and raise anything.
hey guys i started an amazon listi’m gonna be adding to it over the next few days, some of these are higher more expensive things that include materials for my mother and the types of clothes she can wear and some are like living essentials. ( ie she can only wear boots due to her feet issues, her anemia means she has to wear warm clothes such as beanies often). i tried to find the cheapest stuff on there but i may be replacing it with even cheaper stuff later on when i have more time to search.
i’m not hoping for much through this and please don’t feel inclined to purchase anything but spreading the word may be helpful! like i said its going to mostly be essentials and such and clothes so we dont have to wear the same few clothes all the time and we can have more than just hotel basics given to us from an organization.
Hey, I’m really in need of some money. I didn’t get as many scholarships as I needed this semester, and I owe my school $1300 as of today, 10/20. If I don’t get this paid, I can’t schedule classes for next semester, and I can’t be enrolled. Being in school is vital to my mental health, so I’m really hoping I can raise some money to cover at least some of the cost. My paypal is silverpedersen@gmail.com, or you can go to the donate button on my tumblr. Even a few dollars help, as I currently can’t even afford to buy food.
I’m currently a sophomore in SW PA, for my undergrad in library science. College is the only place where I can get my meds, which I depend on, and have the structure and distance from my parents that I need. I’m ADHD and ace/aro, and college is both where I get my meds that I need to function and interaction with other LGBTQIA+ people. I’m also an aspiring fanfic writer and baker, but I can only do these things if I’m mentally healthy. If you donate, I can write drabbles for you, or if you donate a lot I can bake cookies or bread for you. I’ll try to post weekly updates on my status to let you know whats going on.
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I really appreciate everyone’s support, thank you so much for giving and for reblogging my fundraiser. You are helping me stay safe and sane.
Wow, guys. In one week (as of today,10/28), you’ve donated $120. Thank you all so, so much. I am incredibly grateful, and in return, I’ll be posting the first chapter of my Good Omens/MCU fanfic, To Eff The Ineffable, tonight.
Unfortunately, I still don’t have enough to cover my tuition, and I can’t afford to take out loans. I know that a lot of you are hard up yourselves, but even a reblog goes a long way. Again, thank you so much for anything you give, even just a reblog.
Hey, it’s me again. I am so, so grateful for all that you’ve given me, but I have to ask again for help. I still need $150 to come back for spring semester, which I desperately need to do. Anything, even a reblog, helps me out. Thank you all so, so much.
I just got hit with a bill that has completely tanked my bank account and even with backup I still have around 290 GBP overdrawn.
I don’t get paid by my job until the end of the month so I’m stuck in a rut until then so if y’all could be so kind to lend a friend a hand so they can just get by for the next few days chuck a couple of quid over here at https://www.paypal.me/enigmaboi so I can travel to my job and eat.
Thank you
Thanks to everyone’s who donated thus far, but I’m still 201 pounds short.
I hate to plug this again but I’m overdrawn once more and I need to be able to travel to work and eat
One of my best friends, Zoe, will have to drop out of college (we’re sophomores) if she doesn’t raise at least 3k. She’s low-income and would be the first person in her family to complete college, and her family has given up everything for her education, but now can’t keep up with tuition payments. I’d love to do a reading or make a moodboard for anyone who donates (leave your tumblr url instead of name for the donation), but if you can’t donate, please share this post. She deserves to stay more than anyone I know.
Hey, y’all, so I’m still unemployed and looking frantically for a job, with no callbacks or interviews to speak of. I’ve been doing nothing but putting in application after application and calling places I’ve applied to, and having no luck. I’m getting desperate, because rent is due again on the 5th, and I haven’t even been able to buy groceries.
I need $370 before the 5th of December, so please signal boost if you can’t donate or commission!
So I start my new job today and that’s exciting, but after some travel expenses (the buses in my city can be super fucking unreliable) I’m down about $30 from what i had before
On top of that, i need new shoes for work, and I’m not going to get a decent-sized paycheck for a couple weeks.
Thanks so much to everyone who’s donated and signal boosted, but if I could get just a little more help to keep my head above water until then, I’d really appreciate it!
Okay so I was going to make a wishlist, really, pero I finally got a loan from some family to get a car to replace the one that was going to kill me (a 2005 Honda Civic for $2500). Honestly, if anyone feels like chipping in ANY amount of money for my birthday just so I can afford to live whilst I pay off this car, that would help me so much. I’m providing for a family of five on my income, so it would be awesome if you could even help with a dollar or two. My cash.me is $lilaperita . No obligation. Thanks so much. <3 MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW! HAPP BIRF, ME!
The problem, basically, comes down to health and home repairs. I’m still trying to rid my credit cards of debts incurred twelve years ago when I was disabled by staph. And after that…well, I live in an old house that needs constant repair, and I literally don’t have the money to fix it. This is what I’ve been hit with this year:
A termite infestation.
A leaking oil tank. This ended up costing me a fortune in repair calls, replacement, and installation, and the repairmen had a devil of a time getting it down the cellar stairs. I gather that the original tank was placed first and the house was built around it. And I have been saddled with a five-year installment loan because that was literally the only way that the oil company would sell me a new tank. I currently owe 3,782.16. I don’t know how I’m going to pay it off.
Mouse infestation. This led to yet another contract and more debt–as the exterminator wouldn’t come if I didn’t agree to it. And mice and rats terrify me. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t eat.
Last year I had water coming in through the kitchen ceiling. That required the entire upstairs bathroom to be renovated and repaired. Water still leaks into the boards in the front hall when it rains. And I have two dying trees in my yard that would take out my house or my neighbors’ houses if they ever fell.
This has also been a year for equipment wearing out. My computer wore out and needed to be replaced. After that, my phone died. I’m disabled, and the winter tends to exacerbate my health problems. If I need to call 911, I have to have a functioning phone.
The odds are that my refrigerator will be the next expensive piece of equipment to die. I can’t afford to replace it. I also can’t live without it.
And now it’s getting close to December, which means two things–oil bills (which have to be charged to an already burdened card) and taxes on the house in January. $4,000 worth of taxes. And another $4,000 next July.
I DON’T HAVE THE MONEY. I’ve got about $350.00 in my checking account right now, and another $2200 or so in my Money Market (which is my account for taxes). And with the current tax bill in Congress, I may not have even Social Security or Medicare much longer. I don’t know what I’m going to live on in 2018–or how I’m going to survive without medical care.
I haven’t worked this year, so I don’t have any income beyond Social Security.
And I’m strapped. Worse, I’ve got about $27,000 in debt to pay off. That’s on top of the $8,000 I need for taxes.
A friend of mine who goes by the screen name of ZeldaQueen suggested that I offer to write, to edit, and to review in exchange for donations. I think I could do that. So this is what I’m offering in exchange:
When I reach $8,000, I’ll have enough set aside for taxes–at least for next year, though I desperately need some kind of steady income so that I can pay bills for the foreseeable future–and I’ll post at my Dreamwidth journal a snarky in-depth summary and analysis of “The Castle of Otranto,” which is the first Gothic novel. It is over the top, melodramatic, and gloriously absurd.
If I reach $10,000, I’ll post at my Dreamwidth a snarky in-depth summary and analysis of a play that I genuinely love, “Macbeth.” The analysis will include facts, details and trivia not usually covered. (For example, did you know that Lady Macbeth was based on a real woman? One with a backstory that will make you see Lady Macbeth and her husband through new eyes?)
If I get enough to pay the taxes AND pay off all the credit card debt (because why not shoot for the moon at this point, am I right?), I will do something that I swore I would never do. I’ll review The Brick. That’s right. Victor Hugo’s “Les Miserables.” I’ve read the unabridged version (which this will NOT be) and…let’s just say that I think the musical is far better. So if you want to see me being miserable over Les Miz, that’s the goal to aim for.
As you can see, I’m trying to offer something for everyone: thorough analysis for the bibliophiles, help and research for students, and appreciative humor aimed at three stories that I genuinely like. (I’m not fond of The Brick, but I do enjoy the stories of Jean Valjean and of Les Amis.)
If you can’t donate, please at least spread the word and forward the fundraiser around Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. The more people who hear about this, the better the chance that I’ll still have a place to live this winter.
Thank you very much. I hope to God this helps.
P.S. If you can’t donate, please at least spread the word and forward the fundraiser around Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr. The more people who hear about this, the better the chance that I’ll still have a place to live this winter.
P.P.S. Depending on the success of the fundraiser and reception the proffered reviews get, I’m considering starting a Patreon project.
Here’s the tentative list of what I’m offering:
Essays on writing. What to do. What not to do. Common problems. Qualities that I wish I saw more in published fiction and/or manuscripts.
Proofreading. Line editing. Substantive editing.
A new review series on Dreamwidth and Tumblr. I’m thinking of calling it Gehayi’s Required Reading List.
And again–please reblog. I need all the help that I can get.
Thank you.
Addendum: If you’re outside of the U.S., want to donate and can’t because WePay (YouCaring’s payment system) isn’t available in your country, you can go here. It’s my PayPal address:
Hey guys. Even though I have food stamps now, and am trying to get on disability, I still don’t have enough money for rent. I’ll have about two hundred dollars on the first, but my rent is three-hundred and seventy-five.
If you have a few bucks to send my way, please do. <3
