This Friday night/Saturday morning, I was given an ultimatum, after my phone was searched and I was forced to end my long distance relationship with my girlfriend via text shortly after I was forced to ask her if she would support me if I moved in with her. I was told, if I want to be gay, then I would have to leave her house. If I was to stay, I would need to quit my girlfriend and pray the gay away. Too bad for her we don’t pray to the same God in the first place. She also said that maybe, this time when I leave [for school], I should leave for good and stay gone.
My name is Allura. I’m nonbinary. I’m gay. I’m 19 and Black and Muslim and I cannot live like this in this house anymore. It’s killing me. She has already complicated my school situation by taking me from a full tuition scholarship because there were a couple thousand dollars left over on my bill for my second semester, to a more expensive school that has no guaranteed scholarship and will force me to take out thousands of dollars in loans just to pay for my summer, fall, and spring terms. She has already told me that she is taking most of my paycheck from my new job near my school to go towards bills. I wouldn’t have a problem with that if it meant that I could control my debit card, that she confiscated after finding out that I had applied for it, and then she promptly “lost” it. Every piece of mail I get, she reads it. Every text message I receive, she wants to see. She refuses to teach me how to drive yet constantly shames me for being nervous to get behind the wheel in the past. I want my own apartment. I want to be in control of my own life, decide where I will go to school, pay my own bills and live my own fucking life. And I’m not ashamed to ask for help. I was homeless before and I would love to avoid that if possible. So please, help me save money to move out, since I won’t keep the majority of my biweekly paycheck. This is my YouCaring [link] that has to be updated since it was made to raise funds for a school that she won’t let me go to now.Please, help me out. Every little bit helps.
EDIT: THIS POST WAS DRAFTED MARCH 12. AS OF MARCH 19th, MY LEGAL GUARDIAN HAS OFFICIALLY KICKED ME OUT. THE CURRENT DATE IS JUNE 13
I’m already in a different place than I was making this. I’m still technically homeless, again, sleeping on my older brother’s couch while I get my stuff together. I don’t have anything to my name other than about 25 articles of clothes top, a busted laptop she probably broke trying to push me down the stairs while I was leaving, and to top it all off I’m still applying for colleges. I don’t have anything. I’m trying to build my life back together for the 3rd time, after having lost everything I own the first two times to homelessness too. I’m tired.
I want to be independent but at the moment between just paying my phone bill and surviving, I don’t have any extra money to go towards getting my necessary dorm supplies, so I have no choice but to beg for help. I’ll link my youcaring again, which is going to have to be revamped for the 3rd time because of her fucking my life up again, and I’m going to link an amazon wishlist with some stuff I’d like for school. Any little bit helps. I have a job and I’m doing by best to stay afloat but I don’t even have my own bed to sleep on, again. Please.
My YouCaring: I’ll use the money to go towards food, clothes, dorm and school supplies, as well as tuition and fees, and my phone bill. Link: https://www.youcaring.com/garnetdurham-721952
My Amazon Wishlists: art supplies, school supplies, clothes, etc. You’ll know for sure where your money is going. These will be updated as I have time.
Clothes wishlist: http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/16GMR3H65UXWE
Art wishlist: http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1RBVC2ZMOM28M
school wishlist: http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1ULGA34S55H8A
if you have any question about the validity of my claims please feel free to confront me for evidence that isn’t too personal
this ain’t my first time making a post like this and I change names and urls very oftenHELP MY FRIEND!