As you get older you’re going to find that people won’t belive you about being abused. You’re going to have people tell you they did the best they could, they they did actually love you, and that it wasn’t as bad as you say. Your memories of it might fade, people will call you a liar, and you may start to question if it ever happened.
I just want you to know it did happen. You’re not making it up. No, they didn’t love you, and if they did it still doesn’t excuse what they did to you. And, you don’t have to forgive them.