Man sometimes I think I missed all that caring, nurturing, self sacrificing socialization I’m supposed to have had. I mean I can do that shit, but it is work to me. I have to make the effort. Like? Idk. I’m naturally quiet. I don’t like making waves and I’m usually polite and deferrential because it’s an easier way to live. But I’m not nice. I’m not kind and loving and when I do shit, I expect a reward back even if that’s just a moment of attention or a thank you. So I don’t know. A lot of this ‘women are socialized to be nurturers and self sacrificing’ just goes over my head. I believe it is real, but it was never part of my experience. Maybe it was a lack of proper maternal influence at some crucial stage or something.